A lot of things have been pointing at me to write about marriage recently, something which I didn’t want to write about until I had some experience! However, experience isn’t everything.

My family is a large one, we’re loud and have funny accents in some parts, but what I have noticed is the amount of marriages we have had. I’ve been bridesmaid for both of my female cousins and their husbands, and what lovely days they were! I got to be part of the day where each couple declared their love officially and promised to stay together for the rest of their lives. I come from a Christian family so my cousins didn’t live together before they got married, which really says something. Amongst their religious belief that they weren’t to live together beforehand, they must have been in ‘that place’ to pretty much know that they could spend the rest of their lives together without experiencing living with each other. Things like that make me feel so good about marriage, the romantic aspects and actually seeing them work in front of your eyes. It has to be a wonderful thing doesn’t it?

When I was younger I wanted to marry Bryan from Westlife, and look how he’s turned out! Then it progressed to sweaty rockers with black hair, Joey Jordison…Tomas Holopainen…even Jared Leto for flips sake! I’m 21 now and have so many things I want to do in my life, but a girl can dream right? I love knowing that my boyfriend is the guy I want to spend my life with, the guy I want to make more than a boyfriend, the guy I want to start a family with when the time comes. Isn’t it amazing to know that someone loves you that much to declare that to everyone you know?

Back to Bryan from Westlife, his marriage didn’t work out so well right? Well, not knowing much about their relationship at all I don’t really have an opinion on it, but my guess is that they just didn’t work at it very well. After all, relationships aren’t all fun and games. There are hard times when you just can’t agree on things and maybe realize you aren’t on the same par with each other, but you work through it right? I’m so sure it can make your whole world feel like it’s crashing down when disagreements arise, and having forgiven a boy when I was in my teens who pretty much took me for a fool, I can hold a pretty good grudge and most of the time feel like giving up at the first hurdle. If we all did that, however, there would be no marriages for life. People are different and opposites attract, but I’ve always believed you must never take the easy way out. If, on that one day, you declared to love and cherish for the rest of your life, you must have meant it? People must grow with each other, not away from.

I was particularly angered by this man’s blog: http://badmarriageblog.blogspot.com/
He pretty much gives the reasons why it was a mistake to marry his wife, and blames it on the fact his wife changed after giving birth to their daughter. He was angry that his wife had become a ’stranger’ and states: “Stranger was given the opportunity many times to change back to Wife and it never happened”. If I had been in that relationship, I would have felt betrayed. You make a vow ‘for better for worse’ right? You face your disappointments and you work on them to make your dreams, and then you kick the problems to the gutter!

I’ve come to the conclusion that if you see something negatively, it will become negative for you and the other people it involves, a kind of self-fulfilling prophecy if you will. This is why you work through it and make sure your relationship doesn’t fail, no matter how many times you have seen it fail for other people. If you love someone so much to marry them, never let them go because of silly reasons. After all, Virgil knew what he was talking about when he said “Love conquers all”.

I don’t really want to blog about the ghastliness that is “JLo” but I found a list of her demands whilst trawling though Google for work at hotels that she’s stayed in, and really I’m both shocked and jealous of it.

As you can see above she asks for 2 oscillating fans. Not just normal round and round fans, oscillating fans. I can imagine the fuss she would make if the room temperature wasn’t 26 degrees celcius, and as for the ashtrays…well she will have had to abandon that in the UK now because of the smoking ban but hey, it’s JLo! 3 wardrobe racks are required for what is most likely an overnight stay, and this I’m jealous of. I want 3 wardrobe racks to choose from each day! I’ve left most of my clothes at my parent’s house and the ones I do have with me in London I’m bored of already. Next thing, clothing steamer and iron? JLo does not do her own ironing. FACT. I bet she’s not touched an iron since she left “the block”.

A mirror that is “of adequate size” in my opinion was a smart thing to write, how else would the hotel owner know to provide the biggest mirror in the world to accomodate the singers huge head? She might need the microwave for pop tarts? or toasties? and an oven too! What is she going to do? Prepare a 3 course gourmet meal before staggering on stage? I don’t know, it all seems a bit…much for presumably a couple of hours visit. Then again if I were JLo maybe I would ask for those things, but on the other hand if I were JLo I wouldn’t want to be.

Anyway i know that my brother is a good driver and we all think he will do very well, i suppose he’s only got to beat my 26 lessons and 9 minors…pathetic! It doesn’t make me worry any less though, its a shame that bad things have to happen to make people care that little bit more. And i always worry about things that have happened before, happening again? I guess 2005 was quite possibly the worst year of my life, and 2007 didn’t start too brilliantly either. History tends to repeat itself, in good and bad ways. I suppose i’m a pessimist, and i get told i inherited that trait from my Mum! Do i think deeper into things than others? And think more to the future than the here and now? I can’t actually tell which is right or wrong, whether the cup being half full is better than being half empty.

Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. ~Glenn Turner

I’m trying to dig out my old Psychology folders to have a proper look, might bring back a few memories, although last time i found old stuff i ended up teary faced on the front room floor. Eek. In the meantime we nearly have the old Sega Megadrive up and running, which should cause quite a few laughs.

Was that mistake my fault? or had the nice man not done his job and offered me the best fare for my situation? Anyway i apologised for the correction and felt much better for facing my demons and actually fixing a slight financial problem for once in my life.

Getting to Kings Cross a swift 58 minutes later thanks to GNER and running down those awful stairs to the tube station i bypass the machines (they never understand me well enough) and head straight for the two occupied ticket booths. Now don’t get me wrong i’m all for the underground workers, they do a bloody good job, but why must they be so stony faced? They make me nervous! And this is when it all goes tits up and i buy an off-peak travel card when i’m trying to depart from Mile End at 9.05am. What a fiasco…

Sometimes i wish my brain was like Google and i could rack through pages and pages of options, pick the right one, and not look like a complete numpty when trying to get through the easiest of tasks.