deja-vu, all over again

Worry. This is all i seem to do these days! About anything and everything my brain can possibly worry about. I remember sitting in Pyschology classes in Sixth Form looking at cognitive processes and realising how easy it is for some of us to feel just a little bit shit about things.

Its my little brother’s 17th Birthday today so he’s been whisked off this afternoon for his first (legal) driving lesson, and i’m worried! What if he doesn’t like it? What if he really does like it and gets a little too confident? You can’t trust every driver and unfortunately losing a friend not so long ago hasn’t made my own confidence on the road any better. Only this afternoon did some woman turn right whilst on my side of the road and then shake her head at ME, as if it was my fault! Stupid bint..

Anyway i know that my brother is a good driver and we all think he will do very well, i suppose he’s only got to beat my 26 lessons and 9 minors…pathetic! It doesn’t make me worry any less though, its a shame that bad things have to happen to make people care that little bit more. And i always worry about things that have happened before, happening again? I guess 2005 was quite possibly the worst year of my life, and 2007 didn’t start too brilliantly either. History tends to repeat itself, in good and bad ways. I suppose i’m a pessimist, and i get told i inherited that trait from my Mum! Do i think deeper into things than others? And think more to the future than the here and now? I can’t actually tell which is right or wrong, whether the cup being half full is better than being half empty.

Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere. ~Glenn Turner

I’m trying to dig out my old Psychology folders to have a proper look, might bring back a few memories, although last time i found old stuff i ended up teary faced on the front room floor. Eek. In the meantime we nearly have the old Sega Megadrive up and running, which should cause quite a few laughs.

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